| i think it is time for a new lj. |
[Monday
1.30.06] |
so i am going to switch over to my new livejournal. politics____
if you care to continue as my friend on livejournal then add me. i think i will be going back to friends only posting.
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| bolexima |
[Tuesday
1.17.06] |
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the lines of my earth - six pence none the richer |
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i cant stop eating. i cant stop consuming.
ive gained weight and i can feel it.
my tummy is pudgier then it was a week ago.
a month ago.
but its just my tummy.
my boobs arent bigger and my butts not bigger,
my face doesnt show it nore does anything else..
but my tummy is pudgier then it was last week.
and i cant stop eating. i cant stop binging.
i cant stop consuming.
i feel like throwing up.
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| too much shit to do |
[Wednesday
1.11.06] |
Wenesday: 6 concerts and vocal lessons at 6. sat in rain without a coat twice waiting for extremely late rides.
Thursday: 6 more concerts.
Friday: ihs school esembly and clark. then girlscout event which cuts into my getting to bellevue time. then get to bellevue to work concert.
Paris in Arms
Sicily Crypt
Monsterz
Honeyseed
Saturday: from 11 to 3 in seattle doing girlscout business. then get back to issaquah asap to help laura with her show at the kung fu. GOOO TO THAT SHOW I COMMAND YOU! .... (infact amanda, jew, alex. why dont we get the maple vally crew to come to that?.)
Sunday: bessie.
Monday: 10 am= sarah and amanda hair appointment. red hair for the taller of the two.
tuesday: fucking school fags.
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| dear livejournal, |
[Wednesday
1.4.06] |
i am at the library, the issaquah library. waiting for ryan to be finished with his pretty new tattoo, afterwhich hes gonna pick me up and i guess we are doing something. heh.. i hate my house.
my mother left me this nice note this morning.
dont forget the check for your lunch
and you have voice lessons today!
(i just wanted to be involved in your life!)
how many times did she tell me i had voice lessons, a thing ive had every wenesday for months, about 10 times. i was soooo annoyed.
ahhh i have 2 minutes on this computer alright goodbye ill add more to this later.
good day,
sarah
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| dear livejournal, |
[Monday
1.2.06] |
i wish i was less scared of pain.
love,
sarah e. ahlberg
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| a night of raspberry carbonation |
[Sunday
1.1.06] |
it was nice, im glad you brought me.
josh imed me, he said something about all us coming over tomorrow possibly..
idk.
sincerely,
-sarah e. ahlberg
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[Thursday
12.29.05] |
this sore keeps breaking every time i let my top lip touch my bottom lip.
ive got a head ache. fucking hunger pains. fucking stress... fucking mother and her fucking phone.
no sarah i cant help you with your wound because im talking to some guy in michigan.
fuck you. im tired and stressed out and i need a hug... fucking lip...
:(
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[Thursday
12.29.05] |
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yeah so i changed my mind... lol. ive been dancing around my room with a microphone singing to punk music trying to deepen my range into a comfortable alto. YAY. i love practicing. its fun.
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| bored out of my mind. |
[Thursday
12.29.05] |
i want to go out but i cant. cuz the dry waller is down stairs and moms gone. so i gotta stay. the flour is stale so my cookies taste like stale flour. god damn it...
im pretty much just sitting here watching stand up comedians on comedy central cuz i have no idea. im not happy with my profile... on myspace.. i am gonna redo it... but im just not sure what im gonna do with it yet. ill figure out something. it will be awesome though.. im getting flash soon.. and then i can make a flash profile. that will be fucking awesome.
im so excited. i think im gonna redo my journal too. im sooooooooooooo addicted.. god damn.
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| 30 minutes left. |
[Tuesday
12.27.05] |
so firstly i love ryan, and bessie, and ken, and ryan, and ryry. i said ryan twice.... but there are three ryans... i just wanted to let you all know that... oh and i love redmond..... and ryrys house... and i love soul calabur but i cant spell it... but i dont want to try.. and i could be poetic right now... but i dont want to spend the time right now. i never have to pay thats the best part.. and yeah. oh and amanda sry i wasnt at the house....
marsha always ends up calling me right before i smoke.. silly girl. shes like an omen.
i love hearts. they are so pretty.
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| a typical post for a typical day |
[Sunday
12.25.05] |
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killswitch engage |
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i cannot complain. nothing negative has striped this christmas celebration. i got a sweater, and a shirt, some pretty jewelry, and 20 bucks toward sophora. i woke up to nothing, which was refreshing... there was no stupid cheesiness. i think im allowed to leave too.. cuz mom asked me if i was going anywhere and then said that she is... so yeah... wow.. weird. but as i said before i cant complain because well.. its nice... just weird.
i have no idea what im gonna do today... blah!.
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[Saturday
12.24.05] |
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aggravated and amused. |
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south park |
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why? just explain to me why.
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| four hundred years |
[Sunday
12.18.05] |
i dont know what scares me more. is it the thought of changing?
i dont know what scares me more. is it the thought of loosing?
i dont know what scares me more. is it the thought of moving?
i dont know what scares me more. is it the thought that i might be fall down?
idk... im bored..
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| dont read it! |
[Wednesday
12.14.05] |
if you really want to you may.
( Read more... )
(On a side note, I was walked through the halls this Wednesday and I noticed that among all the festive green and red décor in our halls there is a menorah, a tribute to Hanukah, but this menorah ironically has 10 candles, an oversight yes but nevertheless disheartening.)
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| skareamo |
[Tuesday
12.13.05] |
skareamo is the most glorious thing ive ever heard..
good god im in love.
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| the year in reveiw. |
[Monday
12.12.05] |
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eh bien, mon prince - louise cyphre |
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a sentence or two from each months first journal entry:
january:i am going to soo many concerts it rocks.. this friday it is all about the ground zero. then on saturday the ktub or possibly bellevue highschool (imagine that) - cold water romance twice in a row!
february:beginning of crazy nonsence...
march:my body is so numb that all i can feel is my heart beat... the blood pulsing through my fingers... i want to be drunk right now.. so i dont have to feel, i want to be drunk right now so this doesnt have to be real... i want for the night to stay and for the light to never come....
april:everything seems so perfect and right.
may:this journal is private.
[and.hearts.semicolon]
june:sing alone insessently
sleep alone in your bed
cry your wounded heart out
and dont pretend to pretend
july:
[mood|i love this song. thanks ben.]
[music|john wayne gacy, jr.-Sufjan Stevens]
august:im kinda sad.... i want to do something nice tomarrow. idk what but yeah.
im kinda tired too... but i kinda wanna wait up and see if that guy i talk to everynight will appear.
september:i went to white castle.. and there were regular people there (is talking about punks).
im sooooooooo tired of looking at ugly people in bad clothes.
october:i have tried to write a journal entry almost twice every night since my last.. but i can never do it.
november:i cant let him go. i do try so hard, yet no matter how hard i try to leave him behind i just find myself running back.
december:i keep doing the same thing over and over again.. reload and reload.... until the world makes sense again...
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| whore |
[Monday
12.12.05] |
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mixtapes/cellmates : rocky votolato |
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so i havent bought any christmas presents yet. idk i kinda hate gift giving.. i really dont know that i like gift getting much either. so im not a total hypocrit. im really quite bored. and i totally cant tell the difference between quit and quite. i always thought it was with the e.. but someone told me with out.. and now i will be confused for ever.
theres quiet:making little noice, quite:entirely,utterly. quit:exit,end.
and now they make sense.. so that means i was right in the begining. so who ever corrected me needs to die.
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| concert |
[Sunday
12.11.05] |
alright so last night.
spactacuar.
the only thing that would have made it better would have been sex.
hehehehe... sean hooked up with my ex's ex.
and yes that means he has a new girlfriend
and yes that means she used to date jeff.
and me.. i made out with a beautiful man.
and he did everything right.
and i really want to do him.
mmmm pretty man who is amazing at making out.
hmm talking about it is making me want it.
hmm...
moving on.
heh i cant...
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x
thats what i want.
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